deep thoughts

kunwari deep... but in reality, kung ano lang pumasok sa isip ko at the time na pwede ko ma-access ito.. =D

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

pag-drive..

--- over the phone, nag-uusap abt sa preparation ng party ---

anak: eh ma, kelan kayo magbabayad ng balance sa venue?

nanay: mamaya sana kaso baka bukas na lang kasi nde pwede tita mo para pagdrive kami mamaya.

anak: huh?! papadrive, bakit kasi di ka pa magpaturo magdrive kay tita ...

nanay: eh di naman professional yung lisensya ng tita mo...

anak: eh hello, may lisensya ka na, di naman student's permit yung hawak mo... di na bawal yun... kelangan mo lang kasi lakas ng loob para mag-drive...

nanay: ah ganun ba... kelangan ko ba ... kelangan ko ba makaubos muna ng isa ... isang bote ng beer?

anak: ayos! lalo kang mahuhuli ng pulis nyan eh...
*mukhang may sayad na yata ang nanay ko... tsk.. tsk..*

nanay: hehehe...

anak:
*natakot nang kausapin ang nanay* sige ma, pakausap na kay pinsan, may bibilin kasi ako sa kanya... thanks...

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

kuya mamig

just a few glimpse of how kuya mamig is to baby joshua... ang sweet... kape't gatas... =))

good enough

Good Enough
by Lifehouse

It seems the more we talk
The less I have to say
Let’s put our differences aside
I wanted to make you proud

But I just got in your way
I found a place that I *CAN* hide
Now everything is changing
But I still feel the same

We’re running out of time
What do I have to do
To try to make you see
That this is who I am
And its all that I can be

I tried to find myself
Looking inside your eyes
You were all that I was meant to be
There must be something else

Behind all the lies
That you have lead me to believe
Now everyone is saying
That I should find a way
To leave it all behind

What do I have to do
To try to make you see
That this is who I am
And its all that I can be

What do I have to do
To try to make you see
Trying to be like you
isn’t good enough for me

I wont let you go
I wont let you down
I wont give you up

don’t you give up on me now
What do I have to do
To try to make you see
That this is who I am
And its all that I can be

What do I have to do
To try to make you see
Trying to be like you
isn’t good enough for me
What do I have to do
To try to make you see
Trying to be like you
isn't good enough for me

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Saturday, May 26, 2007

Food = OT, OT = Food

I remember before in my prev company, having pizza for dinner means OT... hehehe... so, pag nagtanong na si Manager ng phone number ng delivery ng pizza, kabado na lahat dahil ang kasunod nun, required OT... bwehehehe...

madaming mandatory OT noon... minsan walang food, minsan meron.... minsan, kahit 1 hr lunch break or dinner break, ipagkakait pa... oh well, past is past... nakaalis na ako dun... nyahahaha...

now what... malapit na kaong mag-1 yr sa new company ko... yahoo! and guess what, 2nd proj ko pa lang at 2 beses na din nasasabon dahil sa palpak na User Acceptance Testing... wala daw QA! aba... ako pa ang nasisi (ako kasi ang piniling magQA)... ayos! gusto ko ngang sumagot na talagang walang QA dahil 1 1/2 days lang ang system integration testing.... haaay.... bakit kamo? sa katamaran ng developers.... grrr... sa dating company, ang naiipit mga developers... ang mga QA ang medyo nakakaluwag... pero dito, baligtad... mas matatapang ang mga developers... tsk.. tsk... buti na lang mabait ako... hehhehe... pero enough of that...

ang gusto ko lang talaga i-blog eh tong food na nasa table ko ngayon... been here for 5 hrs pa lang ang samu't saring food na binibigay ng client... yes..client ang nagpoprovide ng food... imagine ha, kami na nga tong palpak yung nideliver, kami na nga yung di tumupad sa target dates ng delivery ng matinong product, kami pang pinapakain ngayon... wow saya... =D

wala lang... nakakatuwa lang kasi parang galit na galit man sila, may compassion pa din pala sila sa mga tao... =D OT kaya ulit next week? nyahahaha...

o siya.. back to testing muna ako... =D

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

ten dollars

last sunday, toleds, mamig and i went ot singapore expo... we plan to buy a wireless router, some SD cards and an mp3 player ... since, we arrived there earlier than last time (COMEX yata yun) and we have a list in mind na what we need to buy, medyo naging mabilis yung time inside the sitex... so i asked toleds na punta kami sa john little sale, sa next hall...

i was just looking around trying to find some things to buy... hehehe.. buti may shopping cart kasi my arms are getting sore sa pagkarga kay mamig... (i dont know why that day eh ayaw magpakarga sa papa nya yung batang yun..) anyhow, while looking into a pile of polo shirts, one of the store assistant for the men's apparel was shouting "hourly promotion.." "10 dollars.." "10 dollars.." with matching taas pa ng big poster "na nakasukat HOURLY PROMOTION".. he was saying over and over... and as usual, na-amaze si mamig, kaya ayun.. naki-"ten dollars" din sya... mamig was also shouting what sounds like "te dolos"... hahaha.. ang kulet diba?!

pero di pa po natapos dun... i found the polo na... naka-pack pa sya sa plastic with cardboard pa... so, instantly, inabot ko kay mamig para may bago syang pagkaabalahan... all of a sudden, mamig raised the polo shirt pack with both hands then shouted "te dolos..." "te dolos..." .. wala kaming nagawa ni toleds kundi tumawa ng tumawa na lang... kasi gayang gaya ni mamig yung assistant na nagsisigaw nun.. pati yung kasama nung assistant tawan ng tawa kasi tong si mamig pinaulit ulit nya yung pagsigaw pati pag-taas nung polo... =))

haaay... ang kulet noh?! 1yr and 4 months pa lang yan.. what more if he's in school na... baka araw araw pinapatawag ako ng teacher dahil may-nibully sya... =D hahahaha....

scary yung bilis ng pickup nya but i guess the other kids nowadays are like that too...

*it must be the milk, pare...* ;-)

Monday, December 04, 2006

Touching...

below was an email forwarded by my aunt, it has moved me personally, but did nothing except to narrate the story to my hubby and his friends since there's nothing more than i can do for these children but pray...

after reading a blog entry: http://nancydrewandme.blogspot.com/2006/12/thousand-bears-for-bicol.html the picture in it reminded me of these children and thought what would happen to them if they were in bicol during the storm...

the story below is very inspiring kaya gusto ko din i-share sa inyo... sana i could raise my son(and future children) to have the same outlook in life...

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Ever since it was diagnosed that I am having a possible heart
enlargement in the last APE, I have exerted more effort to do
physical exercises.

I do jogging during week days and do long - ride mountain biking every
Sunday.

But this Sunday is a special Sunday to me. While I was on my way to the
mountains of Busay (cebu) hoping to strengthened my heart by this
exercise, instead, I personally encountered a heart-breaking scene that
changed me.

I already passed the Marco Polo Plaza ( formerly Cebu Plaza Hotel) when
I decided to stop to buy bananas at a small carenderia located along the
road. I haven't taken any solid food that morning so I need fruits to
have the needed energy to get to my destination - the mountain top.

I am almost done eating with the second banana when I noticed two
children across the street busily searching the garbage area.
"Basureros" I said to myself and quickly turn my attention away from
them to sip a small amount of water. I cared less for these kind of
children actually; to make it straight, I do not like them, and I do not
trust them evenmore.

You see, several times I have been a victim to these kind of children who
are pretending to be basureros looking for empty bottles and cans when
in fact the 'plangganas', 'kalderos', and 'hinayhays' are their
favorites.

I remember one afternoon while I was watching a Mike Tyson fight when I
noticed that the TV screen suddenly became blurred. I checked outside
and saw two young basureros running away with my newly installed
antenna.

Hatred may be a little bit stronger word to describe my feeling towards
these basureros, but I do not like them honestly not till I met these
three children.


I was about to embark on my bike again when I heard one of the two
children, a girl of about 7 or 8 of age saying aloud to the other , a
12-yr old boy , " kuya si dodong kuha-a kay nag-sige'g tan-aw sa mga
nagkaon, mauwaw ta" (kuya si dodong kunin mo kasi tumitingin sa mga
kumain, nakakahiya), only then that I noticed a small boy standing near
to me biting slightly his finger. He's a few inches shorter if compared
to my 5 years old son ( but I knew later that he's also 5 yrs. Old). Though he
did not asked for food to anyone in the carenderia, the way he looked at
the customers who were eating , enough to convinced me that he intensely
craving for it. The older boy then quickly crossed the street and
gently pulled out the little one who politely obeyed. As I watched the
two crossing back the street to the garbage area, I heard the tindera
saying " Lo-oy kaayo nang mga bataa uy, mga buotan ra ba na" (kawawa
naman yung mga batang yun mababait pa naman). I learned further from the
carenderia owner that the children are from a good family , both parents
were working before , and that their father got a stroke 3 years ago
and became partially paralized and their mother died of heart attack
while their father was still confined at the hospital. The parents were
still in their early forties when the catastrophe happened , and the
children became basureros since then to meet their daily needs and for
their father's medication.

Deeply moved by what I heard, I went to a nearby bakery and bought 20
pesos worth of bread and gave it to the children who initially refused
including the little boy. " Sige lang noy, salamat na lang,magpalit
lang nya mi kung mahalinan na mi" (sige lang po, salamat na lang,bibili
na lang po kami mamaya kung makabenta na kami) the young girl said to
me.

I explained that they need to go home because it started to rain . "
Naanad na man mi ani " (nasanay na po kami)the girl answered again.

Again, I explained that the rain can make them sick and if they'll
become sick there's no one to take care of their father.
Upon mentioning their father,they nodded and accept the bread but I
noticed that the older boy did not eat.

When I asked him if he does not like the kind of bread I bought for them
he smiled but as he's about to explain, the little girl, who is the more
talker of them interrupted, "Domingo man gud ron ,noy, basta Sabado ug
Domingo hapon ra siya mokaon kami ra ang mokaon ug pamahaw pero dili na
pod mi mokaon inig hapon,si kuya ra. Pero basta Lunes ngadto sa
Biyernes, kay klase man , si kuya ra sad ang seguro-on ug papamahaw,
kami hapon na sad mi moka-on Pero kung daghan mi ug halin mokaon mi
tanan." (Linggo po kasi ngayon,pag sabado at lingo hapon lang po sya
kumakain, kami lang po ang kumakain ng agahan pero di na po kami kakain
pagdating ng hapon si kuya lang po. Pero pag lunes hanggang biyernes,
kasi may pasok, si kuya lang po nag-aagahan,kami hapunan lang pero kung
marami kaming benta kami pong lahat (kumakain) she continued. "Ngano
man diay ug mokaon mong tanan, bahinon ninyo bisan ug unsa ka gamay?"
(bakit kung kumain kayong lahat,hati-hatiin nyo na lang kahit kunti lang
ang pagkain?) I countered.

The young girl reasoned out that their father wanted that her older
brother to come to school with full stomachs so he can easily catch up
the teacher's lessons. "Inig ka trabaho ni kuya mo undang na man mi ug
pamasura, first honor baya na siya " (pag nagkatrabaho si kuya, hihinto
kami sa pamamasura, first honor kasi sya) the little boy added proudly.

Maybe I was caught by surprise or I am just overly emotional that my
tears started to fall. I then quickly turned my back from them to hide
my tears and pretended to pick up my bike from the carenderia where I
left it.

I don't know how many seconds or minutes I spent just to compose myself;
pretending again this time that I was mending by bike.

Finally I get on to my bike and approached the three children to bid
goodbye to them who in turn cast their grateful smiles at me. I then took
a good look at all of them specially to the small boy and pat his head
with a pinch in my heart. Though I believe that their positive look at
life can easily change their present situation, there is one thing that
they can never change; that is , their being motherless. That little boy
can no longer taste the sweet embrace, care, and most of all , the love
of his mother forever. Nobody can refill the empty gap created by that
sudden and untimely death of their mother. Every big events that will
happen to their lives will only remind them and make them wish of their
mother's presence.

I reached to my pocket and handed to them my last 100 peso bill which I
reserved for our department's bowling tournament. This time they refused
strongly but I jokingly said to the girl " sumbagon teka ron kung di
nimo dawaton" (suntukin kita dyan pag hindi mo tinanggap yan). She
smiled as she extended her hand to take the money. " Salamat noy
makapalit gyud me ron ug tambal ni papa " (salamat po, makakabili kami
nito ng gamot ni papa) she uttered. I then turned to the
small boy and though he's a few feet away from me, I still noticed that
while his right hand was holding the half - filled sack , his left hand
was holding a toy ? a worn out toy car. I waved my hands and said bye
bye to him as I drove towards the mountains again. Did he just found
the toy in the garbage area or the toy was originally his - when the
misfortune did not took place yet? - I did not bother to ask. But one
thing is crystal clear to me, that inspite of the boy's abnormal life,he
did not given up his childhood completely. I can sense it that way he
hold and stare at his toy.

My meeting with that young basureros made me poorer by 100 pesos. But
they changed me and made me more richer as to lessons of life are
concerned.

In them, I learned that life can changed suddenly and may caught me
flat footed. In them, I've learned that even the darkest side of life,
cannot change the beauty of one's heart. Those three children, who
sometimes cannot eat three times a day, still able to hold on to what
they believe was right. And what a contrast to most of us who are quick
to point out to our misfortunes when caught with our mistakes. In them,
I've learned to hope for things when things seem to go the other way.

Lastly, I know that God cares for them far more than I
do. That though He allowed them to experience such a
terrible life which our finite minds cannot
comprehend, His unquestionable love will surely follow
them through.

And in God's own time they will win.

Friday, December 01, 2006

first haircut....

after a few months of contemplating on whether to cut mamig's hair or not, we finally gave in... it was hard to let go of those cute little curls mamig has that made him look sweet, adorable and funny...

i was afraid his charm would be lost together with his curls... but he's getting uncomfortable with it because it makes him feel more warm... it's better to lose that charm rather than give him more irriation, right?!

so on his 16th month, we decided to have his first haircut... it was not that easy... i had to bring him to a kid's salon for that since i'm too afraid i might cut his skin... and the lady cutting his hair was having trouble because mamig was being mamig -- he doesn't want his head to be touched ... he cried almost the whole time... only a few moments of silence when he looked at barney on the small monitor or the stuff toys nearby...

alas, his first hair-cut experience is done... it was not a total perfect cut..
but who cares, i saw my son's new haircut... he still looks cute...
i still adore him... i guess cuter than before, making more of a toddler less of a baby... ampogi pa din ng baby ko... =D he's still my sweet, funny little guy... =)

Thursday, August 31, 2006

a different perspective.. the other side of programming a system...

haaay life...
ang tagal nang walang entry itong blog.. dami nang nangyari.. dami nang pending entries dito.. pero this one calls for posting asap...ang lungkot kasi..


i started working last july, sabi gawa daw ng reports in Crystal Reports para sa isang proj...initially, it would be a 2-month contract pero may possibility na extend... nevertheless, tinanggap ko na kasi mag-b-bday si mamig and i need to start working kasi yung idle time ko sa IT industry eh humahaba na.. tsaka, ok din na added knowledge ang Crystal Reports...

i started out fine.. medyo rough at first kasi ibang iba ang Crystal Reports sa Oracle d2k Reports Builder.. pero nakayanan ko naman.. soon, they asked me to integrate it sa system thru java programming... chicken! hehehe.. medyo madali naman yung integration... ayun, after 3 weeks of doing reports and pretending to do something, na-impress ang PM, i-e-extend daw ako.. cool... days past, nalaman ko lapit na pala ang UAT... barely 1 week before UAT starts, tsaka lang ako sinabihan na mag-SIT nung system... ayos! eh nung gumagawa ako ng reports, dami ko nang nakikitang loopholes sa database design pa lang, not to mention dami pang input screens na di gumagana... pero syempre, di pwedeng ma-ngeber --bago lang kasi ako...

anyway, sige, try ako mag-SIT sa ofc... may mga ni-raise na akong issues... kaso, Websphere daw gagamitin ng client.. eh sa Weblogic gamit namin nung development kasi mas madali... kaya after 2 days, nagpasya si TL na i-assign ako sa client site para doon mag-SIT kasi ibang version din daw ng database yung gamit ng client, so mas ok na sa client site na ako, para mas realistic ang mga errors na makikita ko.. ayan na...start na ng magulong buhay ko.. imagine, umpisa pa lang, di ko na madeploy yung proj sa DEV env kasi may palpak.. gumagana eh yung UAT env.. eh sa dating opisina ko, iba ang UAT env sa SIT... pero 2 araw akong hirap na hirap mag-deploy at naawa sa sarili ko dahil feel ko ang bobo ko dahil di ko ma-solve, eventually, wala sa akin ang problema.. nasa system mismo... nyahahaha...

bago pa lang ako itapon dito sa kulungan ko (malungkot kc ang buhay dito, walang ym, games, youtube.. tapos may technique pang dapat matutunan sa pagkakaroon ng internet connection --napuputol kasi ), di na ako confident i-pa-start yung UAT kasi i know (based on experience sa dating opis ko), na yung system eh nde ka-aya-aya... trust me, my former opismeyts, mas maayos pa ang mga products natin dyan compared dito... nyahahaha... *ngayon ko lang na-appreciate ang mga products natin... bwehehehe* .. kita mo na cosmetics pa lang, palpak na..walang uniformity, alignment.. tapos, di maganda ang navigation flow... pero syempre, di naman nila ako tinanong ng opinion ko.. hehehe, gusto lang ni TL mag-push thru ang sched..
1st day, independent testing muna the ff day yung start talaga ng UAT.. inis na kaagad si independent tester.. di natuwa.. nag-email sa mga kataas-taasan nila... eto namang si TL, sinabi na cosmetics lang ang mga magiging problema... so, may-i convince nya na everthing will be ok, so si UAT tester, napakalma... pero aside sa mga na-raise kong errors for the past few days (mind you, nde lang cosmetics ang mga nakita ko.. imagine, basic validation lang na duplicate record na wala pa!!!!), plus yung independent testing results, natataranta na sila mag-fix... so, ako, ayan, test lang ng test.. supposedly, dapat ccdg sa test case.. pero my gash!!!! ang babaw ng test case nilas... basic lang.. tipong, in create, input data, result should be that the user will be able to save the data entered... ayos!!! 1 day lang tapos ko i-test ang buong system... pero syempre, di ako kuntento ng ganun... kelangan ng QA nung system... kaya gumawa na ako ng sariling diskarte sa testing.. as in, kung pano yung flow ng testing ng mga QA sa SA.. as in per field... sige, dagdag errors pa... eh etong mga ka-grupo ko, nde ko alam kung san nang-galing at bakit sabog mag-code... sige. magaling nga sila, pero di naman malinis at pino ang pag-code nila... basic error handling wala... ok na sana ako na tester lang.. pero there was a day last week na muntik na akong maiyak... paano, ako yung pinagalitan ng tester.. sa akin nya binuhos yata yung frustration nya sa testing nya.. 1 screen lang ni-test nya, eh sabog pa, ayun, nainis..dinayo ako.. syempre, sinabihan ko na lang na, sabi naman sayo wag mo munang i-test yan kasi fini-fix pa nila yng mga errors na nakita ko.. hala! sinabihan ba naman ako ng anong klaseng quality control meron kayo..(syempre, nahurt ako dun kasi ako lang yung nag-q-QA..) kaya sinabi ko na lang na im trying my best to test and raise all issues i could find, but i think it's because i've raised a lot of errors that the developers are having a hard time fixing everything... *ayoko sanang mapasama ang team ko pero kasi, wala naman na akong choice*.. totoo naman na ang dami ko nang issues ni-raise.. di naman nila ni-aayos agad kasi pala, may mga screens pa silang dinedevelop... amfutah... tapos, kung kelang nagalit at nag-raise na ng mga issues yung client (sa totoo lang, 50% ng ni-raise ng client eh ni-raise ko na), tsaka lang sila natataranta sa pag-fix.. ang ngenge kasi...

anyway, bakit ngaoyn lang ako nag-sulat sa blog kung medyo matagal na pala tong hinanaing ko... pano, slack time ko ngayon..as in ngaoyn lang since nag-start ako dito.. kasi, antay pa ako ng email ni TL kung ano gagawin ko dahil sinabi na ni user/client na ititigil muna nya ang pag-test kasi di na sya natutuwa... kaya eto, nagbabasa ako ng requirements specs ng system na ngayon lang binigay sa akin, mag-te-test ulit ako at gagawa ako ng isang bagong xls file NA NAMAN (sandamakmak na yung history ng xls file ng mga errors na nakita ko at di pa din nako-close yung mga issues)... minsan, gusto ko na talaga i-one-on-one yung PM namin pero ang bad ko naman kung di muna ako dadaan kay TL eh... pero in fairness, mabait naman yung team ko, siguro, talagang nasanay lang ako sa kaartehan(in a good way naman) sa coding standards and all sa dating opis ko...

ngayon ko na-a-appreciate (shucks, second time ko na binanggit ang statement na to, probably talagang na-a-appreciate ko... hehehe) yung mga kahit sobra ng isang space sa label eh napapansin, or yung all CAPS lagi sa mga input data pag-nisave na sa database kasi mas kaaya-aya nga tingnan.. bwehehehe....

maganda din naman pala na-idulot ni dating opis sa akin...naging maarte ako... nyahahaha... kidding aside, nakita ko na yung different perspective.. as in... etong system namin, simple lang, walang masyadong computations puro summary or count lang..pinakamatinding computation na nila yung isang field na may squareroot... hahaha... but i guess, matagal na din kasi yung system na pinaggalingan ko kaya siguro mas smooth and structured yung coding.. unlike here na fresh from scratch...

but still...

i miss symbols, eprod and ebranch... kahit na inis na inis ako sa pagiging complicated nyo.. =D